Today was my first day working at the shelter. I woke up early, scarffed down some eggs that Eli had made for me, and caught the rickety micro bus to the market, hopped off, got the rickety old school bus decorated with tassels, stickers of Jesus, and slogans about God, and made my way to the outskirts of Xela, passing sand quarries and corn fields. I got off at my stop quite a ways later and walked down the little path to the shelter.
Some women were doing laundry and others were cooking. I barely put my stuff down when some of the children saw me and ran up to me to hold my hand. I took them upstairs and unlocked the outdoor terrace where we went outside and played. The other volunteer wasn’t there yet and the other women were downstairs so it was just me watching about ten kids. It was a little hectic at first. One kid would get upset, hit another one which would make that kid cry and as soon as I got that kid to stop crying and had scolded the other one, another kid would start crying for some reason. I made the stupid, stupid, stupid mistake of not turning the deadbolt on the door. So when one kid got made at me because I made him share his toy cars, he ran inside and closed the door, locking all of us outside. He stood on the other side of the door, crying and scowling at me. I tried being stern, I tried being sweet, I tried lying and said I had to go to the bathroom, but the little rugrat refused to open the door. Only when I shouted for one of the workers did he open it and storm off. But after a little while, I got out a storybook and got them all to calm down. It’s really sweet how loving they all are. I can’t walk anywhere without both hands being held and anytime I sit down of I have a child climb on each of my knees. They all kept calling me “seño” which I learned is a shortened version of señorita and is a more professional way to say miss. I’ve never heard this word before and I’m not sure if it’s just a Guatemalan thing. (If any hispanohablantes want to weigh in, please do.)
We spent the rest of the morning drawing with chalk and doing scavenger hunts outside. I’m not quite sure where my intense love for kids comes from. I didn’t do much babysitting when I was younger (slash practically none), but for some reason I just feel a pang of love for each of these children. I wish I could soothe the scrapes from their faces and fix their tattered shoes. They seem pretty happy though so I guess that’s the most I can ask for.
This afternoon Eli showed me how to prepare the maize for corn tortillas. It’s a very labor intensive process that she does about three times a week, depending on how much tortillas we eat (which let’s be real, is a lot). She goes to her mom’s house down the street because her mom has a courtyard in the back with a shed where they build fires. There are four big rocks in a circle and in the middle she builds a fire making teepees out of kindling and small logs. She uses a special kind of wood. I’m not sure what the name was, but it’s supposed to be really good for fires. Then in a pot, she combines water with this mineral mixture that has calcium in it. She balances the pot on the rocks and the shed gets very, very smokey. Then she pours in the corn kernels and lets it boil for about an hour, periodically stirring it. It was really interesting to see this process that probably hasn’t changed very much over centuries.
That’s actually as far into the process as I saw because when I got home, I helped Alejandra out with her English homework, afterwards we bonded and talked about everything from boys to music. She’s a good kid.
My nightly routine is I brush my teeth with bottled water, stand on the terrace for a while and look at the view, tidy up my little room, and hang my towel up, tucked into the doorframe to block the light that comes in through the glass on my door. Then I turn off the light, cuddle up in bed, and write in my blog while listening to the same ten Aventura songs over and over. I’m not sure whey the dogs bark more at night, but they do.
I’ve always seen it as a right of passage in learning a language if you have dream in that language. Well goddammit I’ve been waiting ten years for my Spanish dream and I’m not sure if I’ve had it yet. The other night I had a dream with Spanish in it. Jasmin, I dreamt I went to your Spanish class and helped tutor you all. So I was speaking Spanish in the dream, but that just doesn’t cut it. I want a full out, no English dream. A dream where even the people in my life who speak English are speaking Spanish. I want to wake up and not think anything of it until it hits me that the thoughts running through my unconscious mind were not in my native language. It’ll happen.
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